sometimes i am glad he is in my life. Yeah times when he is sweet and not when he annoys me with his habits in life. delighted with the little surprises like bouquet of roses. I almost thought he has forgotten about it. Yeah and prolly he will be the one remembering the anniversary and nitty gritty details... hmmm so was it 8th or was it 9th..scratch head..lol life is bz as ever and i like the monotony of it.. nothing too dramatic but enriching as it can be..

Enjoyed the steamboat dinner after the whole week of bzness. It was quite amusing to see the two bros bickering over the slightest thing and yes, he is still a baby.. *sniggers* ravens club manager.. wahahah...and enjoys the random smart aleck comments. yeah life can be simple and still a bliss..and yeah dad is nice nice x 10

k back to the case writings... nothing exciting to write. But i like life now as it is :)

My books are here!! So excited and I started reading them.. actually i am sounding really geeky here but hey i am still quite a cool person ok. I got hobbies like yoga and it booms! I seriously enjoy studying for my masters..haha minus immunology but cos i still have my case studies to write i need to ignore my new books..wah low eh got separation syndrome from my notes lor.. yes they are more interesting than you, ah dear!haha maybe there is really truth that interest will help propel you in enjoying  what you are doing. But i seriously have no idea how to answer ppl why i am interested in ID..scratch head..maybe not initially but it grows on me..wahaha dunno also maybe it is more applicable or maybe it is just extraordinary... hmm.. dunno how to explain also..it is like a detective game and we seek to compete who finds the solution to the case first?? hmmm.. dunno how to say lar..

enjoy my weekend this week, just studying..love it... got into a little tiff with him. I was exasperated with him. Yes  yes..my sensitivity is 99%.cos i am woman..but den again my anger doesnt last long. haha love livejournal cos there is a friends only option so the kepo him cant see the entries tt i whine about him and he cant read!!!wahahaha..

back to sgh tmr and going ttsh the next year!! wow

met with him after runnin the last lot of my spss data. went alexandra for my quick fix of chicken rice. grab a table and was hungry. as usual, he helped me bot my lunch. the whole plate was filled with chicken back side!!lol i love the back portion of chicken so when i ordered it i always ask for ji1 wei3 fan. apparently durin the last meal, he asked me if ji1 wei3 is the same as ji1 pi4 gu3 n i hmmed him..hungry mah so jus orh him lor.so he told the uncle he wants chicken butt rice lor!!!

k lar..butt is nice lah...but too fatty already..heh heh nvr knew gt chicken butt rice lo..n he charged more for the additional asses put in!so boomed lor..

when did blogging become my fave pastime?? guess too much of case writing just steers me towards making spontaneous entries in this way.

im tetanus is no joke.i am so numb from it now i m typing singlehandely and all my bruises have turned kinda purple. ytd was green..ok hope it fades away soon.. maybe tmr it turns blue??it is very itchy as it heals and i really gt this very awful urge to scratch till it bleeds for some swweet relief. It is like having a perianal itch but everyone's looking at you. You know the kind of i really really need to scratch but i know i really really cannot scratch..sigh and i develop an alcohol allergy AGAIN..is only one glass of beer.. ard my tummy area..itchy itchy

everywhere itches..face leg tummy...argh

and in retrospect, when I passed out tt night in the pub, he was still watching Man U vs Manchester city and asked if i could held up for another half an hour..but i was too groggy and jus fell asleep on the table.. hehe k la to give him some credit, he kept going on and on about i should be telling him when i am unwell etc etc.. while his eyes were stuck to the screen of that 24 inch tv.. hmmm.. if that match wasnt that exciting, i wouldnt have forgiven him. darn speaking of which, i miss Man U's 3rd goal. Happened while i passed out/fell asleep etc.

his priorities:
1.soccer
2.Man U
3.soccer team
4.his new toy car that runs on petrol and is more $$ than any of the presents he bought me 
5.food

to think about it, do i even fall in his top ten priorities??!!wahaha k lar shall nt suan him..hmmm..ok very itchy..going to soak in hot water although it is wrong n offers temporary relief.. cmon my job is only supposed to educate patients but doesnt mean i must be compliant myself and do the right stuff!!! I am so so itchy!!! but no piriton, i need to do work..argh

been having problems staying up lately... is it because i change room??



now i discover why.. it is because of this...



"PROVEN TO HELP BABY SLEEP BETTER"

oooHHHHHHHH nOOOOOOO!!!!!!

k k decide to write something light hearted and frivolous today before i do my work.

Was jogging with one of my good frens who is always on some form of weight losing regimens..and we were discussing how disgustingly we are aging.. hitting the big 3 in like...4 years times.. wah kowz.. and we were saying if we didnt break up in our early 20s, we prolly are wives or mothers by now. Not regretting it since it is pointless to mourn over losses but each experience enriches us emotionally. So we were talking about expectations in the other half..

having lived with two men for the past 26 yrs, i have gr8tly lower my expectations in finding a suitable boy (men never grow up, period)ok so my other half should:

1 lift toilet bowl n flush after use
2 no drinkin from cartons
3.no sharing of personal items. Nah my bro doesnt haf a fetish.he likes to use my comb
4.bathe daily n no sleepin of bed with outside clothes or sleeping others bed in ouside clothes
5.brush teeth at least twice

Boys jus have a veery poor sense of hygenie or rather they claim there are other priorities which precede these basic functions in life. For eg, playing fifa or some rpg on their psp and they are on the verge of attaining another level..

Well if you are a male reading my blog..congratulations if you disagree with what i say and you have a basic sense of hygenie. That qualifies you as a man..congrats..wahahah

i am sure everyone has this issue of feeling darn tired.i am almost at the brink of dropping dead from exhuastion. My shoulder is aching from pain and I am jus tired and very unmotivated.

tired from pushing on and tired of doing work. tired of trying to keep up with expectations. tired of doin my best.

it always seems no matter how hard i try it is just not good enough. Not fast enough. Not in depth enough.

Very dissatisfied with myself.at the end, i probably will end up blaming myself for not better time management, for not studying ahead and for feeling sleepy.

maybe it is just physical exhaustion. a good break will perhaps do some good.. sighz..

even when two persons are in love, they may not have a happy ending.they may have different goals in lives and even if they have a long history, that may still set them apart. I always hope that the present bf will be the one*cross fingers.cross toes*sigh.. Now seeing so many broken relationships, broken engagements n marriages, i think it is unrealistic to pin too much hope.life is a lil too unpredictable for my liking.

Well the news did shaken me a bit.but if it is really the fundamental aspect relationship that is wrong, well it may be a wise decision to end it den prolong each other's suffering?if one enjoys fun, the other is contented at home and no one wants to compromise, doom is impending.but as time passes, who knows, maybe one will learn to enjoy staying at home?i am not qualified to comment since i m nt the involved party. It is a pity.

Sigh hope they deal with it rationally .

Is there an Idiot's Guide to A Relationship? That will be pretty useful. I am not too sure if is because I jus want things to work out or if it is because I am pretty easy going when it comes to relationships (friendships) that I get very disappointed in the way things are going. In work, it is different. There is responsibility involved and thus, I will be very insistent on getting my way if it comes to work. I am not ranting on the current relationship just thinking aloud if I am doing anything wrong in all my relationships, present or previous.

I have a major issue. I like keeping displeasures to myself and these little unhappy incidents are bottled up and then, a minor incident or inocuous remark will make me go into an outburst or a frenzy that I will just start my unreasonable ways or make impulsive decisions. I once told my best friend that she should not take me for granted and should at least informed me if she was going to be late. You see, not only does she not reply smses, she can make lunch appointments with me and then din have the decency to tell me she is not free for lunch and kept me waiting. I remembered waiting for her an hour for her rounds to finish and she had this ominous look on her face that i knew she was in her usual moods again. Before she could start her usual whinings, i jus told her she should have at least told me she was going to be an hour late. I was at outram mrt all this while. And instead of apologising, she didnt speak. Ya her fav way of retaliating is to sink into this silent moments that she just kept mum. We were going to gym and I guess I was really mad so i stood as far from her as I could. I felt charigned and i could have put that one hour to a very good use. Moreover, when she is in one of her moods, I dunno what to do with her. But i was so mad I refused to talk to her. But my anger dissolved super fast. When i reache JP, i only need to ask her what she want to eat and we were good friends again. That's the difference btw best friends i guess

So what am I driving at? I feel that I am always being taken granted for and when it is not reciprocated, i whine...whahaha.. lets nt say if it is my ex or present bf, but this guy stays in some place that is not near any main roads. He wasnt feeling well so I sent him home n once he fell asleep, i went home. Seriously, that is the first time i went to his place. Though it was tenish, the place is like a freaking maze!! so many streets and so damn quiet. And i got lost in one of those quiet streets. And when my mum called, I jus told her the truth. When she knew I was stranded there, her usual nagging starts about how i shouldnt be alone in the streets and even if i take a cab dunno if the guy will kidnap me.. my gosh yeah yeah..my mum is damn good at this.. and why i degrade myself and put rs as a priority and the usual mum stuff.. how if i am nice to him, he wont appreciate la..wah i think i can compile a book on my mum's classic naggings.. anyway i can swallow all this crap until that day when I was just commenting on how he nowadays always bully me make me go home on my own while he slept on, he actually replied that he din force me but i willingly volunteered to go home on my own and since I stay so near Mrt, i can always take the train home......hahaha k la seriously i din mind making my way home on my own. But it would have been nice to know that i am appreciated, rather den making me sound like i ask for it..dat i deserve being stranded and den nagged.

Anyway that is over. Well, i guess every modern couple is bz with work and sacrifices are required to make a rs work.. Sigh shall nt always give in.learn to say no and i guess my interests shall come foremost.

cant believe i actually forgot my password to my own journal. I am having bad lapses of memories!stunned.

Yeah xh i saww ur email on the trip to visit Jas.K tell u wat Jas, if i go there i cook for u ok?no need get recepies. hahaha i should start saving and thanks for the encouragement! No la, I am jus like any other pharmacists lo..

been so tired lately. i am on some course in Nus. There is a vast difference when we were just studying as compared to the purposeful learning. It became strangely more enjoyable and perhaps more relevant to learn. Couldnt help but want to doze off more than once during lecture. how did i survive all those lectures!!!

sigh i jus wan to laze ard doin absolutely nothing. jus stone. i m so tired of one presentation after another... i need a break lo.. dun think i had one ever since my exams..wo hao lei ahhhhhhhhh

I have been thinking if I am really as ambitious sounding as someone has labelled me. Well frankly, doing ID has been an attractive option presented to me. I dont grab at every opportunity and undeniably I have been given many options.

At the end of the day, I am just doing something I am gradually enjoying and I dont need promotion every year. Promotion should be based on meritocracy rather than on senority. If not, where is the incentive to work hard? For me, I enjoy the clinical work I am doing now and I am contented with my current status

Yes indeed I should learn to be more mature, speak and write more professionally to give credibility. Kowz.. k i am reverting to my usually cursing style. But sigh does it always have to be that difficult. I cant be my gila self but act serious and mature... -_-" Ya is act cos i cant convince myself to be permanently speak like a brooding old woman.. haiz

Big sigh. *ponders*

every decision made is a calulated risk.so where did ppl get the courage to make a choice? To make a mid way career move, to get married or to quit a job. hw do we knw we are making the right choice.to jus stick to their decision to the very end cos of the very initial opinion. Where did all tt confidence hail from? think i jus worry incessantly for everyone. Hope everything turns out well;)

haven been bloggin for six weeks or so but i have been so boggled down my exam preparations! Got nokia e63.lovely creature of technology! I can blog on my fav nokia. Nokia rox.. So can i suggest to yongzhong tt the design will be more ideal if it is thinner.i seem to be carryin a brick ard with me..lol and my hp is red.

K so i am seeing someone. Yes brenda u should start praying for me that i am making the best decision. Lol k he's really not as bad as we perceived him to be. I know we are talkin about someone who uses a tennis bag n used it like a sch bag. Very kek sai i know. Like he's super atheletic kind when he's maybe nt? Lol n his nose is perpetually in the air.cmon we r nt dat inferior. I din have a gd impression of him or basically ignore dis guy in my jc. He is jus this guy in jc who turns up last min cos he stays near hcjc, acting nonchalantly n went after every gal in my clique offering free tix n dinners except xiaohui n sy?lol n wat other bad stuff i wan say abt him.. N he din do well for bio but gt in medicine. also, if he doesnt have a hidden agenda, he wont chat with u. K i rest my case on him.

Lol so well, he was under observation for the longest time. And maybe if u bother to knw the person well enuff, hes nt tt bad anymore and maybe hes the right person for me.leopard may nt suddenly change its spot but he has a gd nature. Really.lol nw i nid to construct a gd case to defend him. Ya ya love is blind. K he took leave to send me to and fro for exam, breakfast lunch provided, suppers prn. Flowers on special occassions. Chicken essence n ginseng tea.. K i was touched

N u will realise tt he did change a bit.haha but when he's irritated, he still used that sickening i m the boss u listen to me tone. Nah nvr on me. But it is still there. I guess he toned down. Lol but put on alot of wt. He's my fav xiao pang. K he aint heavy, he's my xiao pang ok? Gave me plenty of reassurance and encouragement. Din pressurise me and always bring a smile on my face. I enjoy jus talkin to him n holdin hands in the car. No we dun make out.

K wat else is there nice abt him?he buy things for my family.ya love me love my family n love my friends. He ate wif meihuan twice. Ya my best fren!lol k so he passed the test.

He may still lack eq..i guess tt is his upbringing. Too elitism plus his favorable family bkgrd. I dun intend to change him but hope i can be a good influence and show him how to b more approachable.he's more polite to the waitress nw.lol k la gotta go mug. No nid to say hw nice he is cos it will be futile. I will bring him on some gatherings n you gals can c for urslves.but nt during our intimate affairs?

thankful that you are always here for me at the end of the day.
appreciate the occasional ben n jerry tt sweetens up my day.
your encouragement comes in handy when i was at my gloomiest.
touched by ur sincerity frm all the simple acts - esp for wakin up early to edit my write up. i know how bz u are.
Dedicate this entry to my long suffering "friend" who claims to be low maintenance - you know who you are. *winkz*

plannin to travel once again.. strangely after every trip i will need to go through one heart break or a break up..hahaha is it then safe to travel. But then again, what does not kill me, makes me stronger? totally disillusioned with the concept of rs..what is there more to say? phobia..so dun pressure me.. I only know how to say no n protect myself. in need of a breather...Travelling with 2 of my most favourite women in life!I love my mum!

In need of a break to go further =)

we once went there as paupers. we shall return in style..

I hate being cf to another. if it is nt bad enough at work mum has to cf with rest of my cousins who are of marriageable age are all getting hitched except me, even someone younger than me.I was totally irked. endure at work at home still must put up with such bullshit

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.


When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.


When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.



When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.



When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than
that.



Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ...


Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '


Dedicated to my goot fren YL,

the ball is in ur court.. dun always nua nua ok?? Anyway tt lousy past rs is so over, dun miss the nxt boat again.. Rbr wat I always tell you, u have always inspired me to be a better person and taking care of me like a da jie, so be kinder to urself and gif urself a chance cos rbr u definitely deserve it. Look at amel now, gone through shit and crap but now we are all sharing her joy of becoming a mum. We'll always support you..oh well maybe the fortune teller can be right..you'll get married by 27..ang mo age that is.. and me getting unexpectedly pregnant..wah kowz..wat a joke lo..and i jus sold myself to sgh..hmmm..ponders..

got a little irritated. was a little pissed. A friend commented with my lifestyle, i won't get a bf cos my schedule is jus too packed. Note: This friend is a guy. hehe so on second thoughts i rescheduled my dinner date with him. Well, i really too bz wat..Felt a bit resigned tt it is prolly the truth. Cos i am not too sure which bf will enjoy starin at his gf study or i myself am not used to the idea of letting ppl stare at me study. and i definitely wont be a good gf. And i wan to excel in everything. lol Had to turn down and rescheduled a few dates cos i decided studies were jus way too priority den having dinner with the opposite sex. Well girls bonding are definitely more appealing to me. Cherishing existing friendships are already stretching my tight sschedule and family ties are becoming a prominent cause for me.

as i say once and again, i wish i had 36 hrs - 12 to sleep, 12 to study and 12 to work.Get a little irritated with myself if i talk too long on the phone etc etc.. i am so tired.. sigh.. mum loves to nag tt i am gettin old and need to find a partner..blah blah.. my favourite concerned colleagues are askin me to find someone who loves me more, blah blah blah so tt i dun lose my sweet self and turns into a hormonal unbalanced creature.. wah kowz... eh but none of the guys in my life are able to make me even think of giving up my singlehood.whahaha

1. I can date whoever i like
2. I can go wherever i like and not account to anyone
3. I spend every cent on myself
4. I can grow as fat as i want
5. you can flirt with anyone when act drunk ( according to fish)
6. I dun wan to be dating jerks.period

there was once someone who possibly can change my mind but den again it takes 2 to clap. So i am jus enjoyin life to the max..bwhahaha is there something wrong with my mentality tt i am embracing the notion of singlehood or still hiding and preventing myself from getting hurt as one of my friends suggested.... Whatever the case is.. Sigh it is nt worth contemplating over. oh well, someone jus told me i have everything already so why am i being so greedy and keep wantng more..food for thought..am i really greedy??

More pixes on gathering!



slurping noodles in oblivion



Best pals!!


can't take my eyes off you!!

the gathering!!












haha see the couple behind also posing the same pattern




haha our favourite act cute pose

anyway, dunno y nowadays i feel like i am more and more like i can only be only buddy of an opposite sex den to fall in love with anyone again. yes i promise not to attract anymore ren cha as so appropriately recomended by tt.. frankly i guess i never realise how hurt and what a terrible ordeal that i went through tt it seems i am incapable of getting more hurt than ever. or perhaps i am just too busy tt i am so caught up with coping with each day, i am not even capable of thinkin much. And beneath my hee hee haha appearance, i guess i need more stability and security more than ever. and cos of my folly and mistakes, undeniably my confidence has taken a blow tt my judgement may be flawed. tt i am  invariably always making a mistake. ok gals, stop nodding ur head in agreement. i am trying ok. and well, haha i m jus nt gd enough for anyone? and yes i am tryin to be nicer to myself as encouraged by jas. Well, since i cant even take care of myself, is jus better to be single den stuck in a mess right??

but tt day when winnie brought bb shawn, i couldn't help feelin sad tt the only thing i will regret in missing out from staying single is motherhood.. sigh when shawn was resting his head on my shoulder and cooing..wow... i was like..wow i like this lil fur ball..very very much... den i met nadia in w57 and she brought her lil baby..sigh couldnt resist playing with him too..bwhahaha...

anyway my wishlist continues

1.change my hp.. nvr tot much abt nokia e71 but mh bot one n is way cool and pretty.. iphone is still first choice
2.get a car??!! (dis one very unsure)
3.bring mum to hkg

sigh if only i have more money n more time!